I hate to say this. I really really hate it. But I am burnt the f- out.
Admitting burnout is like admitting defeat.
I have never felt like this. I have never skipped workouts before. I have never not wanted to do my workouts! I rode the Syracuse course hoping it would motivate me and instead it just left me feeling like I am going to suck on race day. Not a good attitude to have!
Today I had a 1 hour OWS on my schedule. I drove down to the lake - probably a 45 min drive. It was freaking COLD and rainy out. I swam one loop of the buoys doing intervals - hard to a buoy, easy to the next buoy, repeat, repeat, repeat. I got back to the buoy closest to the shore, stopped, and had a 5 min. debate with myself whether to just get out of the water and call it a day, or to head back out and do another loop. I managed to convince myself to do that 2nd loop. Mainly because I didn't want to see that 30 min. deficit on my weekly training schedule. I forgot my watch so I don't even know how long I swam for. 2 loops probably is less than 1 hour but f- that.
This sucks. I am so disappointed in myself for feeling like this! I am the last person to have a bad attitude towards training. I am ALWAYS ready to train and race! What is wrong with me??!
I will power through until Syracuse. I have to because I already registered and I will not waste $250. I still WANT to do Syracuse. I just can't get my body to cooperate.
Maybe the fall weather will motivate me when it gets here. I do love fall! :)
Also big congrats to Jon for a smokin' fast time of 5:08 at Timberman, Mandy with a time of 6:50 at Timberman, my friend Brett for PRing an unknown half-IM in a time of 4:55, and Coach Mary for winning the Delta Lake Triathlon (also all of the people that I know raced but it would take FOREVER to list you all)! Look at all of you speedy mcspeedsters out there!